My Closet

I talked recently about my stubbornness regarding buying new clothing once I had passed the 300 pound barrier.  I was okay purchasing new wardrobes through about 290.  But, after that, my mind just couldn't bear accepting that I was really going to be this weight forever. Well, that stubbornness goes beyond even that.  In December of last year, I gathered up some KrogerWear (company clothing) certificates I had been accumulating over the last few years and finally placed an order.  The only problem?  I ordered everything in XXL even though I knew it wouldn't fit me.  So, not only was I resisting buying new clothes but I couldn't even order my current size in the free clothes I was getting.  This is not the first time either.  My closet is full of 2X stuff that I have never worn.  In fact, I wouldn't be surprised if I was about 5 pounds away from having a much larger wardrobe!  One of the items I bought was a really nice winter jacket.  It didn't fit me this winter.  And, if I continue at my present pace, it may be too big for me next winter!  And, you know what?  I don't care.  I don't care if I never get to wear this jacket that I wanted so badly.  I will give it away or sell it and I will do either with a smile on my face...  and then I will ask for a new jacket for Christmas.  I hope that my current wardrobe of 2X clothing is too big by that time as well.

I don't plan on keeping this clothing either.  All of my "fat" clothes are going to Goodwill as soon as they no longer look good on me.  This is one of Dr. Oz's 10 rules to losing weight...

2. Thou Shalt Not Keep Bad Clothes in Your Closet - When you keep the clothes you wore at an unhealthy weight, it gives you a back-up plan if the pounds don’t come off. Instead, force yourself to stay on track by 86ing your “fat pants.” Send those fats pants, and clothes that are too big for you to Charities.

I agree!  If I fail this time, it's going to hurt mentally and financially!  My boss referenced Cortez and his burning of his fleet's ships last week.  I had never heard the story and, like I always do when I don't know something, had to research.  It seems that Hernando Cortez' fleet landed in Mexico and a small army of soldiers was faced with the dubious task of battling the Aztec empire.  To win the battle, Cortez needed his soldiers to have an "all or nothing" attitude.  So, he burned his own ships and told his army that they would return home in the enemies' ships!  And, they won.  And, so will I.  I like that mentality.  If you want to read more, here is a more detailed account of the story...

http://onlinemarketingguidance.com/motivational-moment-burn-the-ships/

So, one of those shirts I ordered before Christmas finally fit!  I wore it last Friday and was overwhelmed with positive feedback about how nice the shirt looked and how much thinner I looked.  Nice day and a great feeling.  I still have a hard time taking any of these compliments to heart because I still feel like a big tub of goo.  But, I hope to one day truly believe each and every compliment bestowed upon me.

Today was another great day eating and a solid day on the treadmill... 3.48 miles.  Here's to finding hidden treasures I forgot I had in that closet of mine...